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a year going to pass...

this yr going to pass... this yr there a lot of up and downs in my life....i donnoe... i begining to feel more n more not like myself... i donnoe why also... wish to find back the happy me... it seem to have disappear...

Therefore i wish next yr, there will be a improvement in my emotional. i will be able to be stable in my emotional....wish my life will be able to find the balance pt...this yr, my work, studies, family, love life n health are all in a mess... everythign required me to spent time but there are only 24hour per day... even i don sleep, i also nt able to handle it. i really feel vy emotional and physical tired. will next yr be a better yr for me... i still like a ship in ocean that has lost it direction, finding meaningless in everything.....

mine african violet















Mine african violet have grow a lot since been transplant to soil. so happy to see it grow so healthy... wonder how much it grow when i back to office on wed... cant wait to see it grow. Just a piece of leaf but it have so much strength to keep itself alive.

Pass all 3 paper

I manage to pass all 3 exams paper...i really have no ideas how did i pass the paper... i really did vy badly....i manage to up my cap a bit...

It going to be Xmas

This year dont know why, i cant really feel xmas... even i diy all the xmas gift for my friends. i cant feel the xmas mood... oh no.... today xmas eve, i also didnt do much... i just sent the whole days with my family member. I went to my sister new flat at jurong, after that went for lunch at the nearby mail. Then went home, the went to MegaCourt at tampines with my mum n cow. Then have dinner, bath, .... n xmas is less than an hour away.....


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mood swing

Another day had pass....Donnoe why... my mood swing is still vy great.... i really don like it... why am i being affect so easily... how not to be affect so easily. how to take things easy. how not to be affect by words... why am i like that... am i really happy... what i really wat? sometime i feel so blur... i donnoe what i want... i feel, as long there are ppl, there are bound to have problem... no matter wat...

a day at home

Today i never go out, whole day at home. Today didnt plan to go out. Just stay at home, to do somemore hand gift for friends. Hope it enough for sat. =)

Actually, i throw temper at mum during lunch time. I really dont like mum to be like that, everything also link to a "mi xin" The bow was hot therefore, i cant place it on my hands, then she sudden scold me for the way i hold my hand, saying i cant do it, i look like a begger, begging for stuff. Why must she say words like tat... does she know, she hurting me... i her daughter.... I know i wrong, i shouldnt shout back... but i cant control my temper...why am i like tat....

i really hate it.... when i cant control i will shout back... if i can control, i will just keep quiet... n just bear all the unhappiness to myself... i will never try to explain anything... cause when even i try to explain, ppl just think i creating excuses.... sometime i really donnoe what to do... should i say or not to say.... say will make ppl angry, dont say also will... i rather don say anything... cause sometime i really feel, nobody try to understand me. they just want me to be the one they want me to be. i cant be want i am.......

Clearing leave

Year end clearing leave and finally able to have a rest. Able to have back a bit of my personal time. Doing gift for friends during this festival session. Today, went shopping with my co-li. It been a long time, went out with her.

Both of us went shopping to get xmas gift. hehe...both of us get the same gift for our bf. Except design. Each of us have our own preference in mind. =) Today really enjoy shopping.... I think gals all like shopping. If we manage to find the right friends, we really can shop whole day. hehe...

Tml, i will be clearing leave too. But will be staying at home. No intention of going out. Wish to rest and do some craft. =)

25 things you can do take off 10 years or more

By Andreas von Bubnoff and Joanna Lloyd

We used to think our fate was in the cards—or in the stars. Now, thanks to research unlocking the secrets to living longer and better, we know different. It turns out that 70% of the factors influencing life expectancy are due to good choices and good luck—not good genes.
What are the moves that will peel off the years? Prevention asked dozens of scientists studying aging, exercise, nutrition, and related fields which changes deliver the biggest payoff. Read on for their picks—powerful enough to make these researchers adopt them in their own lives.


1. Stay the weight you were at 18
"Next to not smoking, this is probably the most important thing we can do to stay healthy and live longer," says Walter Willett, MD, chair of the department of nutrition at the Harvard School of Public Health.

Leanness matters, because fat cells produce hormones that raise the risk of type 2 diabetes. They also make substances called cytokines that cause inflammation—stiffening the arteries and the heart and other organs. Carrying excess fat also raises the risk of some cancers. Add it up, and studies show that lean people younger than age 75 halve their chances of premature death, compared with people who are obese.

The government deems a wide range of weights to be healthy (between 110 and 140 pounds for a 5-foot-4 woman), partly because body frames vary tremendously. So to maintain the weight that's right for you, Willett suggests you periodically try to slip into the dress you wore to your high school prom—assuming, of course, that you were a healthy weight at that age. If not, aim for a body mass index of about 23.5.

Willett can't use the prom-dress test himself. Nevertheless, at 6-foot-2 and a lean 184 pounds, he dutifully hews to the BMI of his youth.

2. Take the dynamic duo of supplements
They're what Bruce N. Ames, PhD, a professor of biochemistry and molecular biology at the University of California, Berkeley, swears by: his daily 800 mg of alpha-lipoic acid and 2,000 mg of acetyl-L-carnitine. In these amounts, he says, the chemicals boost the energy output of mitochondria, which power our cells. "I think mitochondrial decay is a major factor in aging," Ames says—it's been linked to diseases such as Alzheimer's and diabetes.

In his studies, elderly rats plied with the supplements had more energy and ran mazes better. "If you're an old rat, you can be enthusiastic," Ames says. "As people, we can't be sure until clinical trials are done." (They're under way.) But the compounds look very safe—the worst side effect documented in humans is a rash, Ames says—and "the data in animals looks really convincing," says S. Mitchell Harman, MD, PhD, president of the Kronos Longevity Research Institute in Phoenix.

3. Skip a meal
This one move could have truly dramatic results. Rats fed 30% less than normal live 30% longer than usual—and in a recent study at the Washington University School of Medicine in St. Louis, the hearts of the leaner human calorie-cutters appeared 10 to 15 years younger than those of regular eaters.

In other research, calorie restrictors improved their blood insulin levels and had fewer signs of damage to their DNA. Eating less food, scientists believe, may reduce tissue wear and tear from excess blood sugar, inflammation, or rogue molecules known as free radicals.

Edward Calabrese, PhD, and Mark Mattson, PhD, have opted for "calorie restriction lite." Calabrese, a professor of toxicology and environmental health sciences at the University of Massachusetts, Amherst, dumped the midday meal. Mattson, chief of the laboratory of neurosciences at the National Institute on Aging, has done without breakfast for 20 years.

Try it: Skip a meal a day. You don't need to try to cut calories; Mattson's research suggests you'll naturally consume less that day. Or try fasting one day a week. Just drink plenty of water.

4. Get a pet
Open up your home and heart to Rover or Boots. Owning a pet reduces the number of visits to the doctor, prolongs survival after a heart attack, and wards off depression, says James Serpell, PhD, director of the Center for the Interaction of Animals and Society at the University of Pennsylvania. (His family has a cat, a dog, a large green iguana, a bearded dragon, and a dozen fish.)

Pet ownership also protects against a major problem of aging: high blood pressure. In one standout study at State University of New York, Buffalo, stockbrokers with high blood pressure adopted a pet. When they were faced with mental stress, their BP increased less than half as much as in their counterparts without animal pals. But pick your pet with care. There is nothing stress-reducing about a dog that chews the baseboard to bits.

5. Get help for what hurts
Studies suggest that continuous pain may dampen the immune system—and evidence is clear that it can cause deep depression and push levels of the noxious stress hormone cortisol higher.

So enough with the stoicism: Take chronic pain to your doctor and keep complaining until you have a treatment plan that works, says Nathaniel Katz, MD, a neurologist and pain-management specialist at Tufts University School of Medicine. Your mood will improve—and your immune system may perk up, too.

6. Take a hike
To make the walls of your arteries twice as flexible as those of a couch potato, just walk briskly for 30 minutes, 5 days a week. That's what Hirofumi Tanaka, PhD, an associate professor of kinesiology and health education at the University of Texas, advises after tracking the elasticity of people's blood vessels using ultrasound.

With age, blood vessel walls tend to stiffen up like old tires—the main reason two-thirds of people older than age 60 have high blood pressure. Exercise keeps vessels pliable. Mild exercise also reduces the risk of diabetes, certain cancers, depression, aging of the skin, maybe even dementia. That excites exercise researcher Steven N. Blair, past president of the nonprofit Cooper Institute in Dallas. He's run nearly every day for almost 40 years. "Not bad for a 66-year-old fat man."

7. Fight fair
Nasty arguments between couples increase the risk of clogged arteries. In a recent University of Utah study, women's hearts suffered when they made or heard hostile comments; men's hearts reacted badly to domineering, controlling words.

"It's normal to have a fight with your spouse—it's a matter of how you fight," says Ronald Glaser, PhD, an immunologist at Ohio State University. What he and his wife, Ohio State clinical psychologist Janice Kiecolt-Glaser, PhD, put off-limits: "Getting nasty, sarcastic, or personal, or using body language like rolling your eyes. It's better to simply agree to disagree."

8. Stop and plant the roses
Gardening or being around plants bears fruit. In one study, blood pressure jumped in workers given a stressful task—but rose only a quarter as much if there were plants in the room. And patients who had a view of trees as they recovered from surgery left the hospital almost a day sooner than those with a view of a brick wall.

9. Hoist a few (weights, that is)
Everyone knows cardio exercise is key to slowing the advance of time. More surprising: Strength-training is crucial, too. That's because after their mid-40s, people lose 1/4 pound of muscle mass a year, gaining fat in its place.

But, says Miriam E. Nelson, PhD, an associate professor at the Friedman School of Nutrition at Tufts University, "For a couple of decades, you don't have to lose any muscle, if you do the appropriate exercises." Even people well into their 90s can regain muscle, she's found. Just lift weights 2 or 3 days a week, for a minimum of 30 minutes.

The payoff: more endurance, stronger bones, less risk of diabetes—and better sleep and thinking. Nelson rock climbs and does plenty of other weight-bearing exercise.
10. Do a good deed

Pick up trash in the park or shop for a neighbor who needs help, says William Brown, PhD, a lecturer of psychology at Brunel University, West London. He studied people in Brooklyn and found that those who had a denser social network and gave more to their friends and family than they received—whether the gift was in the form of money, food, advice, or time—reported feeling healthier than others, even when he factored in activity levels.

Another study, at the University of Michigan, looked at 423 elderly married couples; after 5 years, the pairs who were more altruistic were only half as likely to have died. "Many people grow up thinking it's a dog-eat-dog world," Brown says. "But there's a lot of data that suggests the best way to be healthy is to be kind to others."

Next: Eat a rainbow

11. Eat a rainbow...
...made of vegetables, says Peter Greenwald, MD, director of the division of cancer prevention at the National Cancer Institute. Their cancer-preventing abilities are unparalleled. Remember: Aim for nine servings of fruits and vegetables each day.


12. Sup from the sea
Don't just slap anything with fins onto your plate: You want fatty fish, such as salmon, sardines, and lake trout. They contain the omega-3 fatty acids DHA and EPA, which many studies show help prevent sudden death from heart attack. Omega-3s may also help ward off depression, Alzheimer's disease, and age-related macular degeneration, a leading cause of blindness—and maybe some cancers, although evidence is mixed.

To get more of the benefits of good fats, snack on an ounce (a handful) of walnuts a day. Use less corn oil, and more canola and olive oils. Greg Cole, PhD, a professor of medicine and neurology at UCLA, also avoids cookies, margarine, and snack foods such as chips, which are loaded with unhealthy trans fats. On his menu: two tuna sandwiches plus a couple of DHA-enriched eggs a week. He takes 2 g of fish oil daily.

13. Belt out a tune
Exposing yourself to music might help boost your immune system: In a study done by Robert Beck, PhD, a professor emeritus at the University of California, Irvine, levels of an infection-fighting antibody called IgA increased 240% in the saliva of choral members performing Beethoven's Missa Solemnis.

14. Drink a cuppa
Intrigued by studies (of mice, cells in lab dishes, and people) that say tea may fight prostate and breast cancer and heart disease, researcher Anna Wu, PhD, a professor of preventive medicine at the University of Southern California, downs at least 3 cups daily. Green is best, although black tea confers some benefits, too.

15. Whittle your waist
To determine if your body is staying young, the tape measure is better than the bathroom scale: Your weight can remain the same while you lose muscle and pack on fat, including visceral fat, the culprit behind a thick waist. It's linked to a heightened risk of age-related ills such as high blood pressure, diabetes, and heart disease. If your waist measures more than 35 inches (for a woman) or 40 inches (for a man), you probably have too much belly fat.

The best way to shed that inner load: exercise, says Kerry Stewart, EdD, director of clinical and research exercise physiology at the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine. In a 6-month study of 69 men and women, he found a 20% reduction in visceral fat, though participants lost only 5 pounds. Stewart's program was brisk but not too arduous: 45 minutes of moderate-intensity aerobics three times a week and 20 minutes of moderate-intensity weight training, also three times weekly.

16. Double up on D
If there's one vitamin supplement you should take, this is it, experts say. Vitamin D is made in the skin when sun hits it—but as people get older, the D factory doesn't work as well. About half of Americans fall short. Research suggests that a lack of D raises the risk of osteoporosis, multiple sclerosis, and various cancers.

"No other nutrient is so widely deficient in the United States," says Meir Stampfer, MD, chair of the department of epidemiology at the Harvard School of Public Health. "Unless you eat a lot of fish, you have to supplement." Stampfer takes 1,800 IU daily in the winter and 800 to 1,200 IU a day the rest of the year. Make sure your supplement contains vitamin D3, the form the skin makes.

17. Dine on curry
Turmeric, the spice that makes curry yellow, is loaded with curcumin, a chemical with potent antioxidant and anti-inflammatory properties. In India, it's smeared on bandages to help heal wounds.

East Asians also eat it, of course—which might explain why they have lower rates than we do of various cancers and Parkinson's disease and Alzheimer's disease. (Animal research is promising.) Cole, of UCLA, makes sure he gets a good dose of Indian food with "lots of yellow stuff" three times weekly. Don't like the taste? Try a daily curcumin supplement of 500 to 1,000 mg.

18. Donate blood
The life you save may be your own. Many researchers think that we take in too much iron, mostly from eating red meat. Excess iron is thought to create free radicals in the body, speeding aging and raising risk of heart disease, cancer, and Alzheimer's. Until menopause, women are naturally protected from iron overload, but after that the danger of overdose climbs.

Preliminary studies suggest you can lower your risk of heart disease by regularly giving blood. Thomas Perls, MD, an associate professor of medicine at Boston University who leads the New England Centenarian Study, donates a unit every 2 months. He has a rare blood type, so he's helping others—and he may get something out of it, too. If you're scared of needles, at least go easy on red meat: no more than a daily serving the size of a pack of cards.
Next: Look out for your eyes


11. Eat a rainbow...
...made of vegetables, says Peter Greenwald, MD, director of the division of cancer prevention at the National Cancer Institute. Their cancer-preventing abilities are unparalleled. Remember: Aim for nine servings of fruits and vegetables each day.


12. Sup from the sea
Don't just slap anything with fins onto your plate: You want fatty fish, such as salmon, sardines, and lake trout. They contain the omega-3 fatty acids DHA and EPA, which many studies show help prevent sudden death from heart attack. Omega-3s may also help ward off depression, Alzheimer's disease, and age-related macular degeneration, a leading cause of blindness—and maybe some cancers, although evidence is mixed.

To get more of the benefits of good fats, snack on an ounce (a handful) of walnuts a day. Use less corn oil, and more canola and olive oils. Greg Cole, PhD, a professor of medicine and neurology at UCLA, also avoids cookies, margarine, and snack foods such as chips, which are loaded with unhealthy trans fats. On his menu: two tuna sandwiches plus a couple of DHA-enriched eggs a week. He takes 2 g of fish oil daily.

13. Belt out a tune
Exposing yourself to music might help boost your immune system: In a study done by Robert Beck, PhD, a professor emeritus at the University of California, Irvine, levels of an infection-fighting antibody called IgA increased 240% in the saliva of choral members performing Beethoven's Missa Solemnis.

14. Drink a cuppa
Intrigued by studies (of mice, cells in lab dishes, and people) that say tea may fight prostate and breast cancer and heart disease, researcher Anna Wu, PhD, a professor of preventive medicine at the University of Southern California, downs at least 3 cups daily. Green is best, although black tea confers some benefits, too.

15. Whittle your waist
To determine if your body is staying young, the tape measure is better than the bathroom scale: Your weight can remain the same while you lose muscle and pack on fat, including visceral fat, the culprit behind a thick waist. It's linked to a heightened risk of age-related ills such as high blood pressure, diabetes, and heart disease. If your waist measures more than 35 inches (for a woman) or 40 inches (for a man), you probably have too much belly fat.

The best way to shed that inner load: exercise, says Kerry Stewart, EdD, director of clinical and research exercise physiology at the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine. In a 6-month study of 69 men and women, he found a 20% reduction in visceral fat, though participants lost only 5 pounds. Stewart's program was brisk but not too arduous: 45 minutes of moderate-intensity aerobics three times a week and 20 minutes of moderate-intensity weight training, also three times weekly.

16. Double up on D
If there's one vitamin supplement you should take, this is it, experts say. Vitamin D is made in the skin when sun hits it—but as people get older, the D factory doesn't work as well. About half of Americans fall short. Research suggests that a lack of D raises the risk of osteoporosis, multiple sclerosis, and various cancers.

"No other nutrient is so widely deficient in the United States," says Meir Stampfer, MD, chair of the department of epidemiology at the Harvard School of Public Health. "Unless you eat a lot of fish, you have to supplement." Stampfer takes 1,800 IU daily in the winter and 800 to 1,200 IU a day the rest of the year. Make sure your supplement contains vitamin D3, the form the skin makes.

17. Dine on curry
Turmeric, the spice that makes curry yellow, is loaded with curcumin, a chemical with potent antioxidant and anti-inflammatory properties. In India, it's smeared on bandages to help heal wounds.

East Asians also eat it, of course—which might explain why they have lower rates than we do of various cancers and Parkinson's disease and Alzheimer's disease. (Animal research is promising.) Cole, of UCLA, makes sure he gets a good dose of Indian food with "lots of yellow stuff" three times weekly. Don't like the taste? Try a daily curcumin supplement of 500 to 1,000 mg.

18. Donate blood
The life you save may be your own. Many researchers think that we take in too much iron, mostly from eating red meat. Excess iron is thought to create free radicals in the body, speeding aging and raising risk of heart disease, cancer, and Alzheimer's. Until menopause, women are naturally protected from iron overload, but after that the danger of overdose climbs.

Preliminary studies suggest you can lower your risk of heart disease by regularly giving blood. Thomas Perls, MD, an associate professor of medicine at Boston University who leads the New England Centenarian Study, donates a unit every 2 months. He has a rare blood type, so he's helping others—and he may get something out of it, too. If you're scared of needles, at least go easy on red meat: no more than a daily serving the size of a pack of cards.

Next: Look out for your eyes

19. Look out for your eyes
Getting plenty of omega-3s in food or supplements may help ward off age-related macular degeneration. Plant antioxidants such as lutein and zeaxanthin (found in leafy green vegetables like kale and collards) are helpful, too.


People who have drusen—tiny deposits within the retina that can be early signs of macular degeneration—can reduce their risk of blindness in both eyes by 25% if they take a supplement, says John Paul SanGiovanni, ScD, a staff scientist at the National Eye Institute. What to take, according to his study: 500 mg of vitamin C, 400 IU of vitamin E, 80 mg of zinc, 15 mg of beta-carotene, and 2 mg of copper.

20. Take fern extract for your skin
Studies suggest that the antioxidant-rich extract of the South American fern Polypodium leucotomos may help keep your skin youthful by protecting against free radicals and reducing inflammation. Until clinical trials find proof, "it's like chicken soup—it can't hurt and it might help a bit," says dermatologist Mary Lupo, MD, a Prevention advisor and a clinical professor of dermatology at the Tulane University School of Medicine.

Lupo takes 240 mg every morning in a supplement called Heliocare, made by Ivax Dermatologicals. She also slaps on broad-spectrum sunscreen and Retin-A daily and eats a diet loaded with colorful fruits and vegetables—blueberries, raspberries, grapefruit, broccoli, spinach. It may also help to drink green tea and nibble flavonoid-rich dark chocolate, she adds. What you must do: Avoid excessive sun exposure and don't smoke.

21. Take a deep breath
Strife at work, bumper-to-bumper traffic, little Will's report card: Stress increases the concentration of the hormones cortisol and norepinephrine in our bloodstream, kicking up blood pressure and suppressing the immune system. Chronic stress delays wound healing, promotes atherosclerosis, and possibly shrinks parts of the brain involved in learning, memory, and mood.

"The key is lowering the concentration of those stress hormones," says Bruce Rabin, MD, PhD, medical director of the Healthy Lifestyle program at the University of Pittsburgh Medical Center. He's devised a research-based program that mutes the hormone flow: It includes meditation, deep breathing, writing, chanting, and guided imagery.

Check it out at the
Healthy Lifestyle program Web site.

Deep breathing is the top antistress pick of Prevention advisor Andrew Weil, MD: He makes time for it at least twice a day. "It only takes 2 minutes," he says. "I do it in the morning, when I'm falling asleep in the evening, and any time I feel upset."

Technique
Exhale strongly through the mouth, making a whoosh sound. Breathe in quietly through the nose for a count of 4. Hold your breath for a count of 7; then exhale with the whoosh sound for a count of 8. Repeat the cycle three more times.

22. Hey—turn it down!
Exposure to noise damages the delicate hair cells of your inner ears. So when you're around loud noise, wear earplugs—the cheap type you can buy at the drugstore, or pricier ones that preserve sound quality. Andy Vermiglio, a research audiologist at the House Ear Institute in Los Angeles, offers free hearing tests at trade shows for audio engineers (aka sound guys). He can always tell which 40-year-old engineer was religious about ear protection and which one was careless: The latter typically has the hearing of a 70-year-old.

23. Get more shut-eye
Some sleep problems raise the risk of high blood pressure, heart disease, and diabetes—maybe even obesity. Everyone's sleep needs are different; to find out what yours are, sleep experts recommend you turn off the alarm clock when you're well rested, and see how long you naturally sleep. (Most people need 7 to 8 hours.)

While you're at it, ask your spouse if you snore. Snorting and honking through the night are signs that you may have sleep apnea, which causes you to stop breathing at least five times an hour; it raises your risk of stroke. An estimated 18 million Americans have the disorder, but many don't know it, reports the National Sleep Foundation. Doctors are more likely to miss sleep apnea in women, says Joseph Kaplan, MD, codirector of the Mayo Sleep Disorders Center in Jacksonville, FL—and women may not want to mention their unladylike habit. Ladylike, schmadylike. Tell your doctor.

24. Drop that hot potato
High-glycemic foods, rich in quick-digesting carbohydrates, can cause blood sugar spikes and crashes and contribute to overeating and diabetes risk—which accelerates aging.
We need to retrain our taste buds, says Willett. What to ditch: sugary drinks. And cut way back on America's favorite veggie, the potato. It has the highest glycemic index of any vegetable, sending more sugar rushing into the bloodstream faster. Willett's team at Harvard recently found that over a 20-year period, women who ate more whole grains and fewer spuds had a 20 to 30% lower risk of type 2 diabetes. His carb picks for his own dinner: brown rice and whole grain bread, and sometimes whole wheat pasta or bulgur.

25. Put on your rose-colored glasses
"Embracing some of the positive aspects of aging is helpful," says Becca Levy, PhD, an associate professor of epidemiology and psychology at Yale. She found more than a 7-year survival advantage for older men and women with a positive attitude toward aging, compared with people who have a negative one.

If you're a cranky sort, you might also want to tweak your attitude about other things. "People who have a goal in life—a passion, a purpose, a positive outlook, and humor—live longer," says Robert Butler, MD, president of the International Longevity Center in New York City.
Embrace life, and the coming of old age—it happens to all of us. If we're lucky.
The Biggest Bang
Here are the top seven steps you can take to stay young:
Take brisk walks
Keep your waist trim
Eat a wide variety of fruits and vegetables
Strength-train a few times a week
Get enough sleep (most people need 7 or 8 hours nightly)
Manage your stress
Keep a positive outlook

Another raining day...

Today when i leave house, it stop raining but when i going to change bus it sudden rain so heavily.... When i reach my office bus-stop, i stuck at there cause it was too heavy....waited for sometime, decided not to wait. Walk toward my office. When i reach office, i was cold n wet... It was really bad....If i noe, i should apply urgent leave, stay at home to sleep.... Yesterday, slept after 2am. This few nite, always a sleepless nite for me....During day time, i feel tired, when i get back home, i cant sleep.... haiz....

Christmas Wish for you

May the Love, Peace, and Joy of Christmas be yours always.

Love came down on Christmas Day so many years ago andbrought the greatest happiness the world would ever know...

Peace came down on Christmas Day to fill the hearts of menwith all the sweet tranquility each Christmas brings again...

Joy came down on Christmas Day as angels came to earthheralding the miracle of our Messiah's birth.

Meet up with my ex-co-li

Yesterday, was a raining day.... When i wake up and went to meet up with xiuru for breakfast, it started rainning. She wanted to meet up because i need to return her, her taiwan drama which i forget to return her e other day....hehe.... ALways so blur and forgetful.... lucky tat day, meet up with her at bedok, cause i forget to bring the dvd disc out again....after breakfast, she come up to collect the disc. ;p

After parted with her, i went to library and borrow 8books, then i realised i got fines to pay but i dont have cashcard with me. i have misplace my cashcard :p After return home for awhile...Cow called me, which i thought i not able to meet him on that day. We meet up in town area and shop for awhile, as i need to get some items. At abt 6pm+ i went to meet up with my ex-co-li.

It always nice to see them. I really miss working with them. During that period, we didnt do much work, but enjoying life at there....hehe... we chat till close to 9pm, then we went home, cause next day all of us need to work. I guess they also feel sianz, to go back to work again...Monday blue....

Gifts....

Tml still need to go and get materials for xmas gift.... not enough.... Have to make a trip, i think i will go taka to get it, or maybe ask xiuru if she know if MP area having it....I also still need to shop for COW gift....i still have no ideas what to get for him....hmm...headache....when it come to exchange gift, it always giving me headache....

Headache!!!!

Today the whole day having headache....Dont know is it due to the weather, when i left house, the weather was so hot.....the pain was so unbearable for me....

The 854 bus air-con that i took was not cold at all. It was so warm, making me feel even worst, the journey took nearly 1hr15mins. Then a teenage couple, was so inconsiderate, switch on loud music almost throughout the journey, causing my head hurt even more.

Then thoughtout the day, i really dont feel like talking much, cause my head hurt so much....Now after bath, cant sleep again....haiz....today i also cant miss my service cause i need to go for sunday school, after that cant go off early cause got xmas rehearsal. Lucky tonight 854 was fast, manage to reach bedok interchange at 11.30pm, instead of the usual 12am or after.

Tml going to meet xiuru to have breakfast between 9 ~ 10 am. Hope i able to wake up early, and have energy. Later in the evening, will meet up with my ex-co-li for dinner. It been a long time, i meet up with them. hmm...abt 3mth ago, that time i was in a rush, so sorry about that. Hope tml nothing cope up at work, let me enjoy my time with them.... Nowaday really have to cross my finger about work....will never know what will happen....donnoe if i have to say my luck are so lousy....

A relaz day....without work

Today took leave, therefore never go work. Lunch time, meet xiao ying for lunch near her work place. She today so poor thing, cause she was the only lawyer left for the day.

After meeting up with her, i meet up with my God brother at center point, see he eat lunch while i have desert. =) i also pass him, his xmas gift. He stare at it for a long time, he encourage me to try make and sell it online. he say it nice. =)
After meeting up with him, i went to Taka to meet my nus classmate, xiuru to pass her xmas gift. she also never took her lunch, therefore i company her, while i drink peach tea and chit chat. She also receive the same xmas gift as everyone.
After that we walk around to get some food. As today i in-charge for the makan for my cg. Bought cheese cake stick for them. They all say nice. =P

Back home, after bath, cant really sleep. oh no....i too use of sleeping late....

Taking OIL

today another day no need to go work. Every time during yr end, it the time to clear leave. Office nowadays also seldom have people. Lunch time, there are either only 3 or 2 having lunch together. Not like in the past, it about 2 cars of people.

Then my department also divided into 2 group while having lunch. Coming monday, i have no ideas i will have lunch with whom. As my department, left with another 2 co-li and me. I wonder who will i join tat day.

About to go out, today going to be a rush day for me. Meeting XiaoYing for lunch at 1pm, later meeing my god brother for awhile to collect stuff from him and pass him xmas gift. Then need to rush down to Taka to meet xiuru to pass her Xmas gift too. =) ok need to get ready to go out.....;P

DIY xmas cards

wah!!! during this 3days i design 15 Xmas cards, 7 envelopes and made 26 gifts. Didnt expected to create so many. hehe....

Dont know why, when i make cards, i was not tired.... after complete one, i was very happy. I told my god brother, David, i thinking of making cards and sell online. Without much work, he order 4 cards from me. without even seeing the cards. I intend to sell each card with plain envelope @SG7.90/USD4.90 and with special design envelope at @SG1.50/USD$0.90. =) Not sure will people really order online.... but anyway, i never know till i give it a try.

In the coming days, i will need to set up a paypal account in my e-store, and also need to design my e-store. Dont know how should i get started. I plaining my e-store going to be a store that sell gift, like cards, envelope, small diy earring, necklaces, and etc. remember to bookmark my link and visit it the near future. =)

My office plant

At my office i try to grow this african violet. The first time, i try didnt success. This is my second attempt. The plant many to produce a lot of small leave under the parents leave. so happy. It about time to transfer to soil. Hope it will able to make it in the phase 2 stage and grow into a healthy plant. cant wait for it to happen. =)

MC for 2days

Today finally went to see doctor in the morning. Since yday i have muscular pull when i try to raise my left arm. Today the condition has became worst.

Lucky after taking the musular relaz medicine, it become much better. Hope after that tomorrow will be much better. Haiz all this problem are due to work.

Later at 1am - 3am i will be working from home again. haiz..... just hope it really a 2hour outage. Previously also say end at 3am but actually ending at 5:30am. I havent inform my manager, that i taking 2days instead of 1day. After tonite outage then i will drop him email on that, n will be saving the time-off for next time. cant be taking time-off and MC at the same day.

In the afternoon, cow sms on how the reaction on xiuru on the xmas gift. I told him i never went to work and doctor given me 2days MC. After work, he come visit me at my house. Just chit chat and also show him on all the xmas cards, envelope and gifts that i made.

He say this time round, i have improve a lot. =) Of course, cause i bought so many different tools to help me. Some of the tools i still don really know how to use, but will learn. When i DIY cards, i really enjoy the process. now i only completed 3 Xmas cards. still a long way to go.
DIY Links

Xmas are coming!!!

Yday i went to plaza sing to shop at spotlight. To get some DIY items, plan to do make handcraft for my cg members. when i get home after that with the stuff, i already still designing the card envelope. So far i complete 7 and a xmas card. hehe.... the first completed card are for my nus classmate, xiuru. Tml, i will be able to see her at our company meeting. =) Later when i get home i will take photos and upload to my DIY handcraft. Do remmeber to take a look. ;-)

neck pain

Donnoe why, now my neck are very in pain. All along, i having pain due to carry notebook all the time. Since yday, i cant really move my neck. today i cant really raise my left arm. When i raise my arm, i feel the a pull to my neck. =( why there alway endless stuff keep happening to me.....

:(

today i apply my last 2 days AL to be clear by year end but there are no more free slot that will not crash with other co-li. therefore i ask my manager can i still go ahead and clear the leave.

He say as long as u not going oversea. i can go ahead, if u just want to go walk around at local but i need to make sure, i have my hp and notebook ready, in case there are unplanned outage. Which meaning, i need to carry my notebook, which abt 2.5kg and walk around in local.... my back and neck cant take it anymore....currently my neck are in pain, i cant even move my head freely. i still need to carry notebook to work. =(

Even the company giving me how many days time-off or AL are no different cause i still working anywhere and anytime. i hate it, i cant stand it anymore.

what a wasted weekend....

today went out early in the morning to do rehearsal for the coming xmas celebration at my church. After that suppose to go to a friend place for KTV but before i reach, i was on the phone....

i feel so bad....throughout the time, i was on the phone on work...never able to sing with them or talk to them. i really hate it, it really affecting my personal life.....haiz.....

Finally exam over

Finally exam are over.... i am so sad about all the paper i did....all the paper i cant really do... will i able to pass and meet the requirement set by the school....i really not sure....

haiz....not going to think about what to do till i get the result... as there are nothing i can do, now i just can only enjoy the night that i am free.

sad!!!

i am so sad about today paper.... i really try my best but all the qn dont look familiar to me at all.... i cant do all the qn, and those i try memorial all went blank during that 2 hour period....
tml paper, i havent really studies yet....with so little time, i donnoe how much can go into my brain... haiz....last paper to go.....

time running out

i so scare.... time are running out but i don seem to have much progress....how how.... there are two paper but i still havent complete the wednesday paper and thur paper havent even touch....i am feeling very pressure.....

Just finish checking my email...there are 2 outage on the 7thDec2006 early morning, really hope no one called me on that late night as i have paper on the evening on that day itself.

Another day have past

Oh no days are running out.... paper on the coming wed and thur but i still donnoe what i am studying... n i feeling vy tired, how how.... i really getting scare... i scare i will failed 2 modules.....

scare scare....

coming wed are my second paper, till now i havent even start study on that....i still preparing thur paper but the process are very slow....haiz.....

so many days but i havent even complete 2 yr paper and all the tutorials.....oh no!!! how???? can i complete all the studies need by wed?

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. 13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.
15 Whatever is has already been, and what will be has been before; and God will call the past to account. [a]
16 And I saw something else under the sun: In the place of judgment—wickedness was there, in the place of justice—wickedness was there.
17 I thought in my heart, "God will bring to judgment both the righteous and the wicked, for there will be a time for every activity, a time for every deed."
18 I also thought, "As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals. 19 Man's fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath [b] ; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless. 20 All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return. 21 Who knows if the spirit of man rises upward and if the spirit of the animal [c] goes down into the earth?"
22 So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?
Ecclesiastes 3 (NIV)

A little spark of love and humanity

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children,
the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be
forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated
staff, he offered a question: "When not interfered with by outside
influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay,
cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as
other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"
The audience was stilled by the query.

The father continued. "I believe that when a child like Shay, physically and
mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true
human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat
that child."

Then he told the following story:
Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew
were playing baseball. Shay asked, "Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's
father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on
their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to
play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some
confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.

Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not
expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and
said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess
he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."

Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a
team shirt. His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and warmth in his
heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the
bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still
behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and
played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously
ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as
his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning,
Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the
potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to
win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew
that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how
to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the
other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved
in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact.
The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again
took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch
came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the
pitcher.

The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and
could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been
out and that would have been the end of the game.

Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out
of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams
started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay
ever run that far, but he made it to first base. He scampered down the
baseline, wide-eyed and startled.

Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay
awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the
base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had
the ball ... the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be
the hero for his team. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman
for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too,
intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.
Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled
the bases toward home.

All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay"
Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by
turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay,
run to third!"

As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were
on their feet screaming, "Shay, run home! Run home!" Shay ran to home,
stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam
and won the game for his team.

"That day", said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, "the
boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into
this world".

Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never
forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home
and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

AND NOW A LITTLE FOOTNOTE TO THIS STORY: We all send thousands
of jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to
sending messages about life choices, people hesitate. The crude, vulgar, and
often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about
decency is too often suppressed in our schools and workplaces.

If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that you're
probably sorting out the people in your address book who aren't the
"appropriate" ones to receive this type of message. Well, the person who
sent you this believes that we all can make a difference. We all have
thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the "natural
order of things." So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people
present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity
or do we pass up those opportunities and leave the world a little bit colder in
the process?

A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least
fortunate amongst them.

May your day, be a Shay Day.

scare scare

just only have a few days time to study for my past paper....but now i currently on leave but it seem to be bad to the previous state again....my work are dancing again...everyday there will be problem, it been 2 days in a row....how....how to study.....this time row i cant affort it, cause it 2 paper in a row.....=(

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1paper down 2 more to go

haiz...today paper 1st qn 25marks gone....dont understand the qn...thought able to do the next 3 qn but i supper careless....haiz....make so many mistakes....should be able to pass but the grade will be terrible....look like this sem of pulling my cap above 2.5 will be a dream only... hope i able to pull up soon...if not i not able to file for graduation during my final yr.... =(

Exam sick!!!

In the afternoon, i will be having my first paper on Robust Design. Till now i still not very sure what am i studying.... oh no.... this sem, really bad, i cant focus and i think i have become more n more stupid.... i cant understand what i reading... i really have no ideas why like that.... is it because of all the lack of sleep due to work?

My whole body are so aching.... i cant really sit for long. if i do that, i will be in the current condition i am in now.... whole body in pain. it has worsten due to me carrying notebook everywhere for 7days.... the bag was really heavy, cant stand it anymore....

how, in a few hour are my paper, i still feeling empty in my mind... =(

exams on monday

haiz....exams is on the coming monday but till now i still havent get into exam mood...i cant really stay focus for long....why am i like that.....

maybe in my mind there are so many thoughts....i cant get a clear picture of my direction...n i feel my emotion have been totally empty out....i have lost all my passion....

Bananas

Never, put your banana in the refrigerator!!!
This is interesting.
After reading this, you'll never look at a banana in the same way again.
Bananas contain three natural sugars - sucrose, fructose and glucose
combined with fiber. A banana gives an instant, sustained and substantial
boost of energy.

Research has proven that just two bananas provide enough energy for a
strenuous 90-minute workout. No wonder the banana is the number one fruit
with the world's leading athletes.

But energy isn't the only way a banana can help us keep fit. It can also
help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and conditions,
making it a must to add to our daily diet.

Depression: According to a recent survey undertaken by MIND amongst people
suffering from depression, many felt much better after eating a banana.
This is because bananas contain tryptophan, a type of protein that the body
converts into serotonin, known to make you relax, improve your mood and
generally make you feel happier.

PMS: Forget the pills - eat a banana. The vitamin B6 it contains regulates
blood glucose levels, which can affect your mood.

Anemia: High in iron, bananas can stimulate the production of hemoglobin in
the blood and so helps in cases of anemia.

Blood Pressure: This unique tropical fruit is extremely high in potassium
yet low in salt, making it perfect to beat blood pressure. So much so, the
US Food and Drug Administration has just allowed the banana industry to
make official claims for the fruit's ability to reduce the risk of blood pressure
and stroke.

Brain Power: 200 students at a Twickenham (Middlesex) school were helped
through their exams this year by eating bananas at breakfast, break, and
lunch in a bid to boost their brain power. Research has shown that the
potassium-packed fruit can assist learning by making pupils more alert.

Constipation: High in fiber, including bananas in the diet can help restore
normal bowel action, helping to overcome the problem without resorting to
laxatives.

Hangovers: One of the quickest ways of curing a hangover is to make a
banana milkshake, sweetened with honey. The banana calms the stomach and,
with the help of the honey, builds up depleted blood sugar levels, while
the milk soothes and re-hydrates your system.

Heartburn: Bananas have a natural antacid effect in the body, so if you
suffer from heartburn, try eating a banana for soothing relief.

Morning Sickness: Snacking on bananas between meals helps to keep blood
sugar levels up and avoid morning sickness.

Mosquito bites: Before reaching for the insect bite cream, try rubbing the
affected area with the inside of a banana skin. Many people find it
amazingly successful at reducing swelling and irritation.

Nerves: Bananas are high in B vitamins that help calm the nervous system.

Overweight and at work? Studies at the Institute of Psychology in Austria
found pressure at work leads to gorging on comfort food like chocolate and
crisps. Looking at 5,000 hospital patients, researchers found the most
obese were more likely to be in high-pressure jobs. The report concluded that,
to avoid panic-induced food cravings, we need to control our blood sugar
levels by snacking on high carbohydrate foods every two hours to keep levels
steady.

Ulcers: The banana is used as the dietary food against intestinal disorders
because of its soft texture and smoothness. It is the only raw fruit that
can be eaten without distress in over-chronicler cases. It also neutralizes
over-acidity and reduces irritation by coating the lining of the stomach.

Temperature control: Many other cultures see bananas as a "cooling" fruit
that can lower both the physical and emotional temperature of expectant
mothers. In Thailand, for example, pregnant women eat bananas to ensure
their baby is born with a cool temperature.

Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD): Bananas can help SAD sufferers because
they contain the natural mood enhancer tryptophan.

Smoking &Tobacco Use: Bananas can also help people trying to give up
smoking. The B6, B12 they contain, as well as the potassium and magnesium
found in them, help the body recover from the effects of nicotine
withdrawal.

Stress: Potassium is a vital mineral, which helps normalize the heartbeat,
sends oxygen to the brain and regulates your body's water balance. When we
are stressed, our metabolic rate rises, thereby reducing our potassium
levels. These can be rebalanced with the help of a high-potassium banana
snack.

Strokes: According to research in The New England Journal of Medicine,
eating bananas as part of a regular diet can cut the risk of death by
strokes by as much as 40%!

Warts: Those keen on natural alternatives swear that if you want to kill
off a wart, take a piece of banana skin and place it on the wart, with the
yellow side out. Carefully hold the skin in place with a plaster or surgical
tape!

So, a banana really is a natural remedy for many ills. When you compare it
to an apple, it has four times the protein, twice the carbohydrate, three
times the phosphorus, five times the vitamin A and iron, and twice the
other vitamins and minerals. It is also rich in potassium and is one of the best
value foods around So maybe its time to change that well-known phrase so
that we say, "A banana a day keeps the doctor away!"

Second day out of office, on course training

Today are my second day out of office due to on course training....now i am waiting for the system to be set up. nothing to do therefore, trying to write a blog. hehe....
ter 11
Today first half i was sleeping during the lesson cause it too dry and no hand-on. sleeping for more than half the lesson ;P

i didnt gain much from this 2days course... i think i am too tired to be able to absorb the materials.... yesterday, reach htm after 11pm due to study a bit outside. after i reach htm, rest awhile, after bath, i was busy checking email and replying email and also reply to request that was being ask during on course. haiz.... after that i was so tired, i never even switch off my notebook, i fall asleep. 2days in a row =( see how tired i am. i cant absorb anything much, and the worst things, my exams was on the 27th Nov coming monday, i havent even touch much on my books, i really have no confidence to pass at all.... i cant concentrate on my studies at all.... i only wish i could pass and make it to the next sem. i really wish to get out of this kind of working life. =(

Encourage by a friend =)

He will not allow your foot to slip; He who keeps you will not slumber. Psalm 121:3

Why pray?

We pray because prayer opens up the floodgates of God's infinite grace and power to flow toward the person in need. God can act without prayer, but He chooses to operate within the boundaries of human wil and invitation. He allows us to participate in His work on earth with each prayer.

Leonard Ravenhill once said about prayer, "One might estimate the weight of the world, tell the size of the celestial city, count the stars of heaven, measure the speed of lightning, and tell the time of the rising and the setting of the sun - but you cannot estimate prayer power. Prayer is as vast as God because He is ehind it. Prayer is as mighty as God because He has commited Himself to answer it."

A sign in a cotton factory read: "If your threads get tangled, send for the foreman." One day a new worker got her threads tangled. The more she tried to disentangle them, the worse the situation grew. Finally, she sent for the foreman. He asked, "Why didn't you send for me earlier?" She replied, "I was doing my best." He answered, "No, your best would have been to send for me."

When we face a tough situation, our first response should be to ask for God's help. He longs to be our helper and to be fully involved in our lives. =)

wasted standby on friday nite

haiz....another round of wasted standby on friday midnite....face some application from other department causes the outage to be cancelled. =( meaning i will need to support for another round in next wk. =( next wk are my study leave.....like tat on n on, no personal time....how to have a balance work life n personal life....that will never happen to me, if i continue to stay in this company.

.....

am i the person who are inconsiderated.....i am not a thoughful person and selfish person...who always only care abt myself, do thing just come on my mind....when will i be able to learn not to do things based on my emotional....can i do it....

wake up in the middle of the nite!!!

haiz i know i shouldnt always complain....that i was being wake up in the middle of the nite due to work cause that my job scoop....

i really have no ideas why, i cant accept it anymore.....i cant accept my job scope...cause i feel it totally affect my personal life....i got no personal life at all...i got no time to rest at all.....no time to study...n all my sleeping pattern are in a mess.....

now i wake up, i really donnoe what to do....n there are alert coming in every 2 mins till about 5am then it will stop....=( how to bear with it.....i really wish to tender now but it not worth it cause in one month plus time i will be getting my AWS....i need to hang on to it till then but will i have the energy to studies?

Now my current job are affecting my studies too!!! i got no time n energy to do it...even i take leave i am still working....no personal time at all....i really hate it, it giving me a lot of pressure.....=(

still need to access from home

Why must my time-off still need to work....need to help co-li retrive data...not one time but more than 3 times.....early in the morning wake up by phone call....still vy tired...not enough rest, now my mind still vy sleepy, eye are closing....

But trying vy hard to do my lab report...only manage to clear one....still need got one more to clear but my mind are not functioning at all....how to do....i cant think, eye will close anything.....why am i so many complain and unhappy.....why like that....why i so angry abt the email i receive in the morning....why am i bring my notebook everywhere i go? why am i doing all this.....i hate it....i want to cry but couldnt at all......

finally able to take my time-off

wait till so long....finally able to take time-off....i will be clearing time-off for the coming 2days and 1 day of OIL. if i dont clear OIL it will be wasted....

Now crossing my finger, that there will not be anything going wrong during this period. if not i will still need to work even i take leave....i really vy sick of this lifestyle..... all the time never belong to u at all.....

Tml my project due, but till now i havent start writing my report... wanted to start but my eye so tired....cant concentrated to do the report.....look like i need to go to bed, n wake up early in the morning to do it.

Going to sick again!!!!

haiz....i going to fall sick again....now i having sore throat and blocked nose....always fall sick so easily. =( Hope dont, cause tml will be another busy day for me.

health info

haiz the health info i put up is something i cannot fullfil with my current job. This few days i been working late. Due to issue keep coming in non-stop and all need to attend to it immediately.

Donnoe why, am i so unlucky.....things just keep coming in non-stop till i cant rest and cant do all my personal life. Actually i should have started study during the wkday after work. but till now i havent have the time and energy to do 1 lab report, 1 project report and the worst i havent even start studying for my first paper on the 27th Nov. i don even noe can i complete everything on hand fast enough to go on a peaceful leave. =(

For church activies, i really cant take it, i have ask another sister to cover for me. Due to work, i have skip 2 cg. I know they will be asking me lot of qn....but i really got no choice. currently, i really very under stress... just hope this storm of events will be able to over soon......

Health Info

BRAIN DAMAGING HABITS
1. No Breakfast
People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level.
This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degeneration.
2. Overeating
It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power.
3. Smoking
It causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease.
4. High Sugar consumption
Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development.
5. Air Pollution
The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our body. Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about a
decrease in brain efficiency.
6. Sleep Deprivation
Sleep allows our brain to rest. Long term deprivation from sleep will accelerate the death of brain cells.
7. Head covered while sleeping
Sleeping with the head covered, increases the concentration of carbon
dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain
damaging effects.
8. Working your brain during illness
Working hard or studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in
effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.
9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts
Thinking is the best way to train our brain, lacking in brain
stimulation thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.
10. Talking Rarely
Intellectual conversations will promote the efficiency of the brain.

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The main causes of liver damage are:
1. Sleeping too late and waking up too late are main cause.
2. Not urinating in the morning.
3. Too much eating.
4. Skipping breakfast.
5. Consuming too much medication.
6. Consuming too much preservatives, additives, food coloring and artificial sweetener.
7. Consuming unhealthy cooking oil. As much as possible reduce cooking oil use when frying, which includes even the best cooking oils like olive oil. Do not consume fried foods when you are tired, except if the body is very fit.
8. Consuming raw (overly done) foods also add to the burden of liver. Veggies should be eaten raw or cooked 3-5 parts. Fried veggies should be finished in one sitting, do not store.
We should prevent this without necessarily spending more. We just have
to adopt a good daily lifestyle and eating habits. Maintaining good
eating habits and time condition are very important for our bodies to
absorb and get rid of unnecessary chemicals according to "schedule."
Because:
Evening at 9 - 11pm: is the time for eliminating unnecessary/toxic
chemicals (detoxification) from the antibody system (lymph nodes).
This time duration should be spent by relaxing or listening to music. If
during this time a housewife is still in an unrelaxed state such as
washing the dishes or monitoring children doing their homework, this
will have a negative impact on health.
Evening at 11pm - 1am: is the detoxification process in the liver, and
ideally should be done in a deep sleep state.
Early morning 1 - 3am: detoxification process in the gall, also
ideally done in a deep sleep state.
Early morning 3 - 5am: detoxification in the lungs. Therefore there
will sometimes be a severe cough for cough sufferers during this time. Since
the detoxification process had reached the respiratory tract, there is no need to take cough medicine so as not to interfere with toxin removal process.
Morning 5 - 7am: detoxification in the colon, you should empty your bowel.
Morning 7 - 9am: absorption of nutrients in the small intestine, you
should be having breakfast at this time. Breakfast should be earlier, before 6:30am, for those who are sick. Breakfast before 7:30am is very beneficial to those wanting to stay fit. Those who always skip breakfast, they should change their habits, and it is still better to eat breakfast late until 9 - 10am rather than no meal at all.
Sleeping so late and waking up too late will disrupt the process of removing unnecessary chemicals. Aside from that, midnight to 4:00 am is the time when the bone marrow produces blood. Therefore, have a good sleep and don't sleep late.

=(

haiz....why for the past one month i been facing problem on work....i been really pressure.....exams coming soon i not able to study at all....also i got no time to study...everyday after work, i already so tired....cant do anything at all....i really so scare i will failed this time round. just like the other time....no time to study at all....need to work even on my leave.....

Stress up over work!!!

Been having MC for the past 2 days......i think i being stress out over work....That day when i see doctor i was having stomach cramp, stomach flu, gastric pain. Keep wanting to vomited and yesterday keep feeling dizzy. The worst is, my blood pressure was a bit high. Think due to work stress, never rest well.

Dont know, i think my mum see me like that she cant bear with it. She company see doctor, usually she never company me see doctor. I always see doctor myself....

I feel i have reach the peak, yesterday i sms xiao ying if she could help me with sunday school. I vy strees with work and at the same time studies. till now i havent start preparing my studies. my paper on the coming 27th. Havent have the time to start since day one lesson time. i even miss a few lesson. haiz....why everything just went wrong..... can it turn out smooth...... Stress!!!

busy & tired week

This past week, are a very busy week. So many unplanned incident happen at work. For the past 2 days, seem like been working non-stop. haiz..... also have to ask my DB admin to go back to office to work with me. Really paiseh......

Things that i did just went wrong..... the worst things, all those things i did are not the first time i did it.... all the time never went wrong but only this past 2 week..... will the coming week going to be all rite..... i really very mentally tired and stress......

Lesson ending in about another week or 2 but till now i havent start studies. There are so many things happen at work by the time i finish work, my mind are all exhausted....... how i going to take the exam at the end of the month..... even the coming period when i on leave, i still need to be on standby..... anything happen, i need to go back and work with my recently working pattern, i don think i will be able to concentrated on my studies alone..... =(

haiz....

haiz, why recently so many things have happen to my life making me under pressure, tired and unhappy. Why am i feeling so -ve.

the whole day, i was preparing for my coming midnight outage. misses the revision class, still crossing my finger, praying that the later outage will be a smooth outage. this few days was busy collecting static data, troubleshooting, hardware failure and etc....everything just seem wrong wrong n wrong. nothing are rite. Have to work till early morning, tml still need to attend meeting in the afternoon, stack of jobs request waiting for me to clear =(

Lucky, never get scolding!!!!

yday after class, forget to turn on my sms alert. In the middle of the night, my diskspace hit over 90% and every 5min it sent out sms. My manager also receive the alert. Scare me, because i never attend to it untill this morning after 7am. In our handphone, it store over hundred of sms.

Lucky, my manager first thing in the morning, ask me to tell another co-li not to sent sms out every 5min, if cant please ask him to stop monitor on that. As we have another server to monitor it. lucky.....cause this incident happen 2 time within 1 wk.

This few week at work was very busy and everything just doesnt seem to be ok. supper tired week.

Just for a laugh ;D

Dear Manager (HR),

Bob Smith, my assistant programmer, can always be found
hard at work in his cubicle. Bob works independently, without
wasting company time talking to colleagues. Bob never
thinks twice about assisting fellow employees, and he always
finishes given assignments on time. Often Bob takes extended
measures to complete his work, sometimes skipping coffee
breaks. Bob is a dedicated individual who has absolutely no
vanity in spite of his high accomplishments and profound
knowledge in his field. I firmly believe that Bob can be
classed as a high-calibre employee, the type which cannot be
dispensed with. Consequently, I duly recommend that Bob be
promoted to executive management, and a proposal will be
sent away as soon as possible.
Signed - Project Leader


A MEMO WAS SOON SENT FOLLOWING THE LETTER:
"That stupid idiot was reading over my shoulder when I wrote the report
sent to you earlier today. Kindly read only the odd lines (1, 3, 5, 7,9,11, 13) for my true assessment of him."

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:( Being wake up by alert

haiz now havent even 6am, i being wake up by alert and the alert was keep repeating from 2am+ ~ 5.49am then stop cause the main reason i never wake up. It a sign my body are too tired....haiz....Later at office my manager sure will ask me question y i response to it so slow....

My eye very heavy but yet i know i cant go back to sleep, if not i sure will reach office late. =( Recently, my headache keep coming back on and off. I dont feel like doing anything, dont want to use my brain anymore....i cant really think.....what a bad start on my monday this week.

Mum birthday tomorrow!!!


My mother birthday tomorrow, just now went to suntech around to have buffel. Now i so full....Mum actually dont wish to go out and eat, she feel it a waste of money.She wishes us to save the money up. Just like i ask her what she wish to have for this birthday, she asked me dont buy her gift. Just give her a red packet.

It been a long time, since the whole family went so far for dinner. Usually when my sister and i suggest it, my dad will reject it. As he cant walk very far. Therefore, we just have dinner downstair. This time dad agreed, therefore we able to go to suntech to have dinner together.

A bit sad, tomorrow having lab. If not i really wish to have dinner at home. haiz.....no choice, can only company my mum after my class, unless i skip lab tomorrow.

Check it out!!!

Check this out, this is pretty good.
Have a good week start tomorrow.

http://www.youtube.com/v/RB-wUgnyGv0

Got scolding from dad!!!

The day before, accompany my dad to see doctor on his aching conditions on his leg. The doctor who attended him have no ideas what wrong with my dad. His conditions is slightly different from what he expected.

When my dad saw his reaction, he say to the doctor, you must pray in-order to know what wrong with him. The doctor every fast agreed to pray together but my dad back off. The doctor quickly mention "1peter and John14". I think my dad don't know what the doctor was saying.

After that I went to school, therefore I miss the chance of sharing it with Dad. But I keep praying very hard for my dad, hopping that he would recover from this illness and also to have a chance to share with him.

I know it very hard cause my Dad was a very stubborn person. Just now I still bear with hope to trying to share with my Dad. Just as I expected. I got a bad scolding from my Dad. Mum said I asked for it. I really wish my Dad wouldnt suffered. The nurse that day even suggest me bring my Dad to light house to have a try. I really wish to bring my Dad to their healing session if there are any but I not sure my Dad will go a not and I know I will get a lot of scolding from him first. Anyway, I will need to find out more from my ex-supervisor.
“We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way;And the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all.”(Isaiah 53:6, written 700 B.C.)

Still not able to rest!!!!


Haiz.....it going to 6am, i still havent finish my work....so tired....fall alseep n wake up 2 times to work. when will it end? My eye now cant really open....oh no....

The only lucky things i no need to go to work for the whole day.
Initially, thought it going to be half day time-off. Expect it to end before 2am. Haiz …But I was wrong.

No matter, how much rest I going to take later will able to make up on the hour sleep that I have miss and the tiredness that will last donnoe how many wk. =(

Another night of doing standby

haiz....Tonight need to do another round of standby. This wk so many night of unrest =( Currently, my eyes are very heavy but I dont dare to sleep scare I will not able to wake up later to work.

It been 3 nights continueously never able to rest well. My body recently been showing sign of unwell again. Now I having slight gastric but I never skip any meal today. Dont know what causes it. Now I trying to find things to do to keep me awake till my outage job is over. No matter, how much sleep will never let me recover from all the restless night. It really causing me to feel Emotionally down and tired.

How we treat people

Five (5) lessons to make you think about the way we treat people.

1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.
During my second month of college, our professorgave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious studentand had breezed through the questions until I readthe last one:"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen thecleaning woman several times. She was tall,dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name?I handed in my paper, leaving the last questionblank. Just before class ended, one student asked ifthe last question would count toward our quiz grade."Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers,you will meet many people. All are significant. Theydeserve your attention and care, even if all you dois smile and say "hello."I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned hername was Dorothy.

2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain
One night, at11:30 p.m., an older African Americanwoman was standing on the side of an Alabama highwaytrying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car hadbroken down and she desperately needed a ride.Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car.A young white man stopped to help her, generallyunheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The mantook her to safety, helped her get assistance, andput her into a taxicab.She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down hisaddress and thanked him. Seven days went by and aknock came on the man's door. To his surprise, agiant console color TV was delivered to his home. Aspecial note was attached..It read:"Thank you so much for assisting me on the highwaythe other night. The rain drenched not only myclothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along.Because of you, I was able to make it to my dyinghusband's bedside just before he passed away... Godbless you for helping me and unselfishly servingothers."Sincerely,Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember thosewho serve.
In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less,a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop andsat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water infront of him."How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked."Fifty cents," replied the waitress.The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket andstudied the coins in it."Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired.By now more people were waiting for a table and thewaitress was growing impatient."Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied.The little boy again counted his coins."I'll have the plain ice cream," he said.The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill onthe table and walked away. The boy finished the icecream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitresscame back, she began to cry as she wiped down thetable. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish,were two nickels and five pennies..You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he hadto have enough left to leave her a tip.

4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path.
In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on aroadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see ifanyone would remove the huge rock. Some of theking's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came byand simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed theKing for not keeping the roads clear, but none didanything about getting the stone out of the way.Then a peasant came along carrying a load ofvegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, thepeasant laid down his burden and tried to move thestone to the side of the road. After much pushingand straining, he finally succeeded. After thepeasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticeda purse lying in the road where the boulder hadbeen. The purse contained many gold coins and a notefrom the King indicating that the gold was for theperson who removed the boulder from the roadway. Thepeasant learned what many of us never understand!Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improveour condition.

5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts...
Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at ahospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz whowas suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her onlychance of recovery appeared to be a bloodtransfusion from her 5-year old brother, who hadmiraculously survived the same disease and haddeveloped the antibodies needed to combat theillness. The doctor explained the situation to herlittle brother, and asked the little boy if he wouldbe willing to give his blood to his sister.I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking adeep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it willsave her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay inbed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did,seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then hisface grew pale and his smile faded.He looked up at the doctor and asked with atrembling voice, "Will I start to die right away".Being young, the little boy had misunderstood thedoctor; he thought he was going to have to give hissister all of his blood in order to save her

Feeling sleepy @office

Oh no!!!! I getting more and more sleepy. My eyes cannot really open. How I wish to be at bed now. The whole day I been feeling very cold and whole body aching. Scare I will fall sick again.

Today finally fill up form to clear my AL for my exams. This semester very fast, it going to over soon. Exams coming again. haiz....the cycle like a never ending. I will be taking leave from 23th Nov ~ 7th Dec but I need to cover my Supervisor on 20th ~ 24th Nov. haiz..... used to it, on leave or MC still need to attend to work. There are no clear line between my work and personal life. That the life when you working @IT field.

Another wasted night of waiting + the holiday ='(

haiz....24th Oct @11pm+ i receive a call from other department co-li asking me to get ready to be on standby after midnight and before 2am.

During the conversion time, i was still in the ending of the show. Lucky i never watch midnight movie. If not it will be wasted.

When i rush home after the movie, and i was very sleepy but cant sleep. wait till around 2:20am, the co-li finally called but to inform me that the outage was cancelled. All the waiting was wasted.

then the next day was holiday but my mind was so tired that the whole day was wasted. Doing nothing. haiz....i hate this part of my job scoop :( Job always disturb my personal time, yet i cant do anything to it, as long i still working in this line.

Moody day!!!

My mood today was just like today weather. Not able to see clearly in front. Life is tired.....

This morning wake up, i was not feeling too well. Having dizzy again n today haze was quite bad. As usually, no matter what, still need to wake up n prepare to go to work.

Didnt went out for lunch, ask my co-li to pack chicken rice for me. Doing report at the office. Actually dont feel like eating at all.
Today, nothing very interesting happen at work.

After work, went for my night class. This week almost all five night time was at school. Feeling so tired. Both physically and emotion. After lesson as usually took the same route back home, and now writing blog. Another boring n moody day!!!

Pause & take a look at your surrounding


A Story Worth Reading
I had a very special teacher in high school many years ago whose husband died suddenly of a heart attack. About a week after his death, she shared some of her insight with a classroom of students. As the late afternoon sunlight came streaming in through the classroom windows and the class was nearly over, she moved a few things aside on the edge of her desk and sat down there. With a gentle look of reflection on her face, she paused and said, "Class is over. I would like to share with all of you, a thought that is unrelated to class, but which I feel is very important.

"Each of us is put here on earth to learn, share, love, appreciate and give of ourselves. None of us knows when this fantastic experience will end. It can be taken away at any moment. Perhaps this is the Powers way of telling us that we must make the most out of every single day."
Her eyes beginning to water, she went on, "So I would like you all to make me a promise. From now on, on your way to school, or on your way home, find something beautiful to notice. It doesn't have to be something you see, it could be a scent, perhaps of freshly baked bread wafting out of someone's house, or it could be the sound of the breeze slightly rustling the leaves in the trees, or the way the morning light catches one autumn leaf as it falls gently to the ground.
"Please look for these things, and cherish them. For, although it may sound trite to some, these things are the 'stuff' of life. The little things we are put here on earth to enjoy. The things we often take for granted. We must make it important to notice them, for at anytime it can all be taken away."
The class was completely quiet. We all picked up our books and filed out of the room silently. That afternoon, I noticed more things on my way home from school than I had that whole semester.
Every once in a while, I think of that teacher and remember what an impression she made on all of us, and I try to appreciate all of those things that sometimes we all overlook.

Take notice of something special you see on your lunch hour today. Go barefoot, or walk on the beach at sunset. Stop off on the way home tonight to get a double dip ice cream cone. For as we get older, is not the things we did that we often regret, but the things we didn't do.

Remember, life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

5 small love stories

********* STORY 1**********
A girl and a boy were on a motorcycle, speeding through the night. They loved each other a lot..... Girl:"slow down a little.. I'm scared.." Boy: "No, it's so fun.." Girl: "please..it's so scary.." Boy: "Then say that you love me.." Girl: "Fine..I love you..can you slow down now?" Boy: "Give me a big hug.." The girl gave him a big hug. Girl: "Now can you slow down?" Boy: "Can you take off my helmet and put it on? It's uncomfortable and it's bothering me while i ride." The next day, there was a story in the newspaper. A motorcycle had crashed into a building because its brakes were broken. There were two people on the motorcycle, of which one died, and the other had survived...The guy knew that the brakes were broken. He didn't want to let the girl know,because he knew that the girl would have gotten scared. Instead, he was told the last time that she loved him,got a hug from her, put his helmet on her so that she can live, and die himself... Once in a while, Right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale... Message "Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well"

************************ Story 2 *************************

Nurse: "It was a busy morning, approximately 8:30 am, when an elderly gentleman, in his 80's, presented to have sutures (stitches) removed from his thumb. He stated that he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am. I (nurse) took his vital signs and had him take a seat,knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, we began to engage in conversation. Asked him if he had a doctor's appointment this morning somewhere else, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I then inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer Disease. As we talked, and I finished dressing his wound, I asked if she would be worried if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now. I was surprised, and asked him. "And you are still going every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?" He smiled as he patted my hand and said. "She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is." I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, "That is the kind of love I want in my life." True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be. Good friends are like stars...You don't always see them, but you always know they're there

************************ STORY 3********************
The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she's settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg. It had been a year since Susan became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. 'How could this have happened to me?' she would plead, her heart knotted with anger. But no matter how much she cried or ranted or prayed, she knew the painful truth, her sight was never going to return. A cloud of depression hung over Susan's once optimistic spirit. All she had to cling to was her husband Mark. Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength she needed to become independent again. Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task. Soon, however Mark realized that this arrangement wasn't working - it was hectic, and costly. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But just the thought of mentioning it to her made him cringe. She was still so fragile, so angry. How would she react? Just as Mark predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again. "I'm blind!" she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I'm going? I feel like you're abandoning me." Mark's heart broke but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each day he would ride the bus with her until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day. He taught her how to rely on her other senses to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat. Each morning they made the journey together, and Mark would take a cab back to his office. Although this routine was even more costly and exhausting than the previous one, Mark knew it was only a matter of time before Susan would be able to ride the bus on her own. Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday.... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying for her fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? "Why do you envy me?" The driver responded, "It must feel so good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, "What do you mean?" The driver said, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you when you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches you until you enter your office building. Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was blessed, so blessed, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there had been darkness. "You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her..." So if you love someone be faithful to that person.

***********************STORY 4********************
From the very beginning, girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy, saying that it has got to do with family background, & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him. Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrelled very often. Though the girl loved the guy deeply, she always asked him: "How deep is your love for me?" As the guy is not good with his words, this often caused the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vents her anger on him. As for him, he only endured it in silence. After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?" The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he left, they got engaged. The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it was hard, but both never thought of giving up. One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. when she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. she had lost her voice.... The doctor says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,..it's still just silence cry that accompanied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer. With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying.... The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy. With a new environment, the girl learns sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him. A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing a invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead. When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language to tell her "I've spent a year to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You." With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled. Treat every relationship as if it's the last one, then you'll know how to Give. Treat every moment as is it's the last day, then you'll know how to treasure. Treasure what you have right now, or else you will regret one day...

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After 21 years of marriage, I discovered a new way of keeping alive the spark of love. A little while ago I had started to go out with another woman. It was really my wife's idea. "I know that you love her," she said one day, taking me by surprise. "But I love YOU," I protested. "I know, but you also love her."The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my mother, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally. That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie. "What's wrong, are you well?" she asked. My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news. "I thought that it would be pleasant to pass some time with you," I responded. "Just the two of us." She thought about it for a moment then said "I would like that very much." That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date. She waited in the door with her coat on. She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her last wedding anniversary. She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel's. "I told my friends that I was going to go out with my son, and they were impressed," she said, as she got into the car. "They can't wait to hear about our meeting". We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant, was very nice and cozy. my mother took my arm as if she were the First Lady. After we sat down, I had to read the menu to her. Her eyes could only read large print. Half way through the entree, I lifted my eyes and saw Mom sitting there staring at me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips. "It was I who used t o have to read the menu when you were small," she said. "Then it's time for you to relax and let me return the favor," I responded. During the dinner we had an agreeable conversation, nothing extraordinary - but catching up on recent events of each others lives. We talked so much that we missed the movie. As we arrived at her house later, she said "I'll go out with you again, but only if you let me invite you". I agreed. "How was your dinner date?" asked my wife when I got home. "Very nice. Much more so than I could have imagined," I answered. A few days later my mother died of a massive heart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn't have a chance to do anything for her. Some time later I received an envelope with a copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place mother and I had dined. An attached note said: "I paid this bill in advance. I was almost sure that I couldn't be there but, nevertheless, I paid for two plates - one for you and the other for your wife. You will never know what that night meant to me. I love you." At that moment I understood the importance of saying, in time: "I LOVE YOU" and giving our loved ones the time that they deserve. Nothing in life is more important than God and your family and friends. Give them the time they deserve, because these things cannot be put off til "some other time". Someone once said "I've learned that, regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I think this is true with your in-laws, grandchildren, sisters,brothers and your friends. Anyone that means something to you-you should spend time with them and let them know how much they mean to you as often as you can. To love and to be loved is everything..........................................