Angry......

i never been angry for more than 1 night... this time i already been angry since sat night.... when i reach home, my dad don't even dare to ask anything. after i get into my room i start throwing items here and there. i just know that my dad told my parrots to stop making noise, jie jie is in bad mood. i even wake up

i know i shouldn't be like tat but i just cant control it. i cant.... i cant do anything. when i can use my pc non my sister room pc, i was so mad, i keep throwing pillow and hitting my hand on the table on the keyboard.

sunday morning, i cant do anything, i feeling so mad, n i keep crying. i try to do things but i cant... i try to read bible, i ended up crying.... everything i do, is all uncontrol emotion. i never know i will get so angry.... i never experience it before....

cow even say that i am xiao qi. ask me to forgive her... i donnoe i just cant do it... it beyond my limit. Just that sunday night i was feeling much better... at night i could do sunday school stuff.

then today evening time, while i was waiting for bus, i was still praying for a heart to forgive n forget everything. who know, come the sms.... it been too much.... every sms come, is all the word that really hurt me.... i already try my best to avoid direct quarrel about it... n everything come are pushing me to that limit.

i really don't know what to do.... i wish to forget about it but i cant... i also don't know how... i don't know how to handle the emotion.